I’m having a terrible time. I’m in a funk I guess. In the last month 3 doctors wanted to hospitalize me for two different problems. I had a UTI and pneumonia pleurisy combo. They thought I had a blood clot in my lung. I have to go to a specialist for the UTI and my lung still feels all wrong though it will be three weeks Friday. I don’t even want to go to the doctor. I’m not sure if my antibiotics worked because I again feel like I have a UTI and I’m almost certain there is something still in my lung. I feel like a crazy person. Honestly like how can I say, I feel something in my lung or it just doesn’t feel right and have someone look at me properly. It’s painful and all I do is sleep. I came home at 4 slept till 9 and I’m already exhausted and it’s 1am.
It doesn’t help I’m working for some asshole at work who had their gallbladder removed and it will be out 2 plus weeks, but was able to go to Buffalo Wild Wings eating drinking having a great time yesterday (thank you Facebook for the photos) and also came into work acting fine and filed for disability. Which pisses me off because that means she probably plans on being out longer than two weeks. It really isn’t that long of a recovery and obvi she is doing well. Because if she wasn’t she wouldn’t have come out she would have done her shit from home. Also my boss is not in because she had a death in the family, this girl knows this and is taking advantage. So now I am working 10 hour days 2 weeks straight. Actually that girl was out for a week in the beginning of the month because her aunt died and she traveled outside the country to her funeral stuff. That’s how I got pneumonia, this girl. And she does this stuff all the time as it gets closer to the end of the year she will work less and less. And they won’t fire her! She has an influential relative.
Meanwhile in my life the urogynocologist won’t return my calls and I’ve had a pretty severe pelvic pain since all the UTI stuff started and it never went away! And I can only call them during certain windows do to work! I just don’t know what to do. I feel bad physically and emotionally I’m drained too. I’m hoping to call them tomorrow and get stuff done if not I give up, I just can’t.
As for my lung I don’t know what to do there either. What do I say? How do I even approach this and when will I have time to go to the doctor anyway. I just want to give up on everything. Which is terrible but that’s how I feel.